Monday, October 29, 2012
My dogs are always teaching me ... more than I am teaching them. They force me take a step back and really evaluate myself when things don't seem to be going right. I hate disappointing them, it's my job to guide, encourage and have them succeed. Agility - no problem, for the most part, that's my comfort zone, though lately I've been battling with feeling good enough too. I've been training Gyp for Obedience - specifically the Open ring, and I love the journey, it's a challenge, it's out of our comfort zone, makes me a better trainer, and overall it builds a better relationship and takes us on new Adventures together! I thrive on variety and am always on a quest to learn. I had challenges when putting Kaleb in the Open ring - his were different though, he got his CDX quickly and I know Gyp can too. This weekend at an Obedience training session, for a brief moment, I let intimidation, lack of confidence in myself and my dog take over. And you know what, it's just what I needed to keep me grounded. Gyp could feel my heart racing and my anxiousness seeping out of my pores. She thought I was crazy(er). Then she gets unsure and it all goes to shit. She did everything I asked, just more cautiously and worried, not with the happy spirit she normally has. I HATE that, I felt like a total shithead. We took a break, had a play, entered the Ring again for another go-round of Open exercises, and YEP, I had my dog back. Nothing like a sensitive dog to tell you SMARTEN THE FUCK UP, WOMAN! We trained again yesterday while I kept my Mantra top of mind "In order for my dog to be her best, I need to be at my best." And yep, I had my dog back. If I fuck up again, I think I might just tattoo it on my arm, then while I slap myself upside the head, I can read it as my hand makes impact with my face.
A is for ATTITUDE
If you don't like something, change it. If you can't change it, change your attitude.
B is for BODY LANGUAGE
Emotion always has its roots in the unconscious and manifests itself in the body.
- Irene Claremont de Castillejo
- Irene Claremont de Castillejo
C is for CONFIDENCE
Confidence is contagious. So is lack of confidence.
D is for DETERMINATION
Go back a little to leap further.
- John Clarke
Monday, October 22, 2012
I was thinking a few weeks ago - wow I really feel like I am beginning to have a defined picture of who I am, I feel like an adult. Then, squirrel. My life is changing and redefining all the time, and I do like the journey, and I am learning to accept those changes. I've been around lots of family and friends in the last few weeks, and they accept me and my eccentric-ness, ADD and OCD tendencies all wrapped into one hyper, off centre person. But there are times, when I am like who the F am I and what the hell do I stand for. Oh well, I guess I'll figure it out as I go, it's worked thus far.
So instead of doing a bunch of writing - here are more photos, I like pictures. Hopefully soon, I'll feel like writing more ...
|Vancouver ... love this city.|
|My cousin Ruby and I had an epic sword fight with plastic straws on the Ferry. |
|I loved this Beluga whale session, all about education and operant training. Neat stuff.|
|Ruby, doing her Penguin imitation at the Van Aquarium|
|Welcome, my mom's "new" dog Pleat.|
|Gyp working on her Out of Sight Stays, 2 fun matches on Saturday, and just layed down on one sit - |
otherwise he runs were SUPER!! Excited to enter her first Open Trial!
|The boy has been hunting ... he's been doing rather well ... Pete loves hunting with him, |
and I love seeing K work - nothing better, at all.
|Gyp also likes Pheasants ...|