Wednesday, November 7, 2012

When 8 months feels like yesterday.

I really want to get to the day when I can look at pictures of Jane without crying. I'm not there yet. 8 months and I miss her like crazy. I'm so happy I have so many photos of her, sometimes it feels like she's still here, maybe that's why it's so hard. I miss you Janey.

5 comments:

Kim said...

I feel your sadness and the emptiness. I lost my heart of hearts, quite quickly, to pancreatic cancer...it will be 2 months ago in 4 days. Casey was my heart, my 4-legged love, my all. And she has left a huge hole in my heart that nothing can ever fill again. But what I've been learning on this horrible journey I've been on, is *that* love I felt for my Casey (and she for me, for she WAS my shadow) was rare. And I relish that. What YOU had with Janey is rare too. So, try to relish all your feelings, (yes, even your sadness), for just think of all the people out there that have never felt that kind of love...now THAT is truly sad.

Taryn said...

When my boy Dylan died way back in 2003, I put together a photo album of many of my favorite pictures. (He was a pup in 1986 so pre-dates digital!) Every year, on his birthday, I sit and go through it. I want to keep him firmly set in my memory. But, even with 9+ years gone by, I still get teary going through the book. I don't think we every completely recover when the great ones leave us.

andrea said...

how can you ever completely recover... you are part of them and they are part of you ...

I still hear my setters tags jangling in the woods sometimes .. and she's been gone over 25 years ..

hang in there

oddman said...

It took me over 3 years to be able to talk about Mouse without tearing up. Hang in there, the sorrow you feel shows how deeply your love for Janey is. It's perfectly normal to feel that sorrow, you lost something very special. Hugs.

Andi

Jenny Glen said...

Ugg. It takes forever. I still can't really spend time looking at Chippy pictures. The really hard thing was watching a movie where he was in the background and seeing him moving around and acting like he was still alive. No tears now but I just try not to think on it too deeply.