Wednesday, June 5, 2013

I'm ready. Here we come.

Today has been tough. Packing for AAC Regionals. I was expecting and hoping to run kaleb. Until now I've left all his toys and agility leash in my trial bag. Today I took them out and hung them up in my garage, another step... But man that was hard. No more "slimebag" and chuckit, they've retired :) . I've cried a few times today. I've been to 2 trials now since k passed, and I've been Ok, but this just hurts, it's different - he always ran great at the big events, I loved running him at them. It's only been 6 weeks, and the heavy gut feeling is back. I just really miss the bugger - all if those firsts without him, you know. I have to think of the weekend ahead and the dogs I have, and enjoy every single moment. Gyp and I are gelling and everytime in the ring with her is something I've always cherished, we are a team, we can almost read eachothers thoughts. I'm bringing Fitz with me for some comic relief, distraction and I'm sure he will have a blast being his charming self. I do better at most things in life when I'm kept busy. I got a really nice email today from a person I hold in very high regard "you will have 2 angels on your shoulder this weekend,  no tears, just smiles as they guide you". I'm looking forward to a fun weekend with friends, great dogs (many who are running at Regionals for yhe first time!!!) and a ton of laughs ;) that's what it's all about! 

4 comments:

onecollie said...

man so hard :( *hugs*
Good Luck with Gyppie!

Melissa Kay said...

Awe, I understand. I lost my BC back in December... and then in May, when I pulled up to the training field for the first time without her (new puppy in tow) - I burst into tears.

Jenny Glen said...

Go Gyppie!!!!
Glad you are bringing Fitz. I always found there was no time to grieve when you are busy chasing down a new little devil.

Sam said...

We will be thinking of you. It's so hard - we understand.

Sam